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Tuesday, September 1, 2009
yay yay yay yay yay!!

slept at 4+am. long conversation wif ryan again last nite. he paid half of his debt to me [ms swan was so funny!!]. crapped a lot. the first time i chatted wif a different side of ryan. he said some things which i shall nt disclose here. haha. stunned for a while. its amazing how two completely different people [except the fact that we r both "gila monsters"] can crap about almost anything under the sun.

oh, and we made a discovery. usually a random qn is nt a random qn. tis days, random qn = a qn that's being asked out of the blue but in relation to sth that is happening in their lives, nt a qn being asked bcz he was, "juz tinking...".

see tis pic? two rings. symbol of love/relationship/marriage/commitment. we were talking abt tis ytd. nt exactly tis, but linked la. made me reflect abt myself. he made me realise how pathetic i was. i'd rather endure the pain of loving someone from afar, rather than take my chances. whoa. bt wad cn i do? im juz nt into it. in fact, i stay the hell AWAY from it. cowardly of me? hell yeah! im scared to take that one step. the one step that cud hurt me or him or the both of us. love is double-edged sword. too many ppl's blood is on that blade, bt i dun undastand y do ppl still take that leap. funny.

oh wells. ditch that emo mode. i am finally FREE!! ended the final killer, MC paper and i felt the heavy burden on my shoulders juz fade away... fuh!! im nt gg to tink of hw i did or my marks nw. i will worry and cry over it when the time cums. for nw, IGNORANCE IS BLISS!! i will enjoy the hols as much as i cn.
hav the urge to rot and slack all i want, but nah. will do sth productive. housework = spring cleaning [well hari raya's coming. anyone wan cum my hse!?] work [cnt be helped]. oh, and i registered for driving licence @ BBDC. will try to pass my BTT before sch reopens.
oh wells.
that's it for nw.
PS. i hv a sudden urge to go kite-flying. hmm..

~ { 11:10 PM }
~till next time.. XOXO ♥~