wad a week!WARNING!! EXTREMELY LONG POST AHEAD!!
Butterfly, Fly Away
You tuck me in, turn out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that.
Brush my teeth and comb my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back.
You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be.
And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me.
Caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry hold on tight.
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly, fly away
Butterfly, fly away
i love this song by Miley Cyrus. it somehow describes how i feel sometimes. how much i want to be free. but how much i'm being held back.
my mum keeps me under her wing. she feels that i'm too naive, nt yet prepared to face the world. she does not seem to understand that i wud nid to experience life for myself to actualli learn. keeping me sheltered all my life wun help me much.
dun u tink? i'm 19, not 9.
i wan to be able to stay out late wif friends without worrying over a veri early curfew. to be able to dress however i wan w/out being constantly criticised or asked to changed because its "inappropriate".
if i were to continue, the list would go on and on. might as well stop here.
when will tis blur-terfly get to fly, test her wings, soar freely, feel the wind?
21? perhaps.
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saturday (1st aug)
my birthday. im 19. 1 more year before i hit the big 20. zomg!
aniwae, ppl who wished me:
umi + kinah + yana (twice, on 30th july and on the day itself), nina + yamnie + kenneth + huiwen + shelvi + karthik (by sms after midnite), ryan (on msn), MUMMY (early in the morning), aly (4 sms-es and spammed a whole page on my facebook profile), arif + soak foon + wendy (@ work) , wak mas + wak mat + kak leza + hariss (when i went to their house in the evening)
presents received:
purple slingbag from MUMMY, a golden charm bracelet from aly, knitted sweater from kinah, english novel from yana, a dress-shirt from wak mas, body shop items from umi and ralph lauren perfume frm hariss + kak leza.
(do u tink they're implying dat i smell!?)
went causeway point metro @ woodlands. MUMMY allowed me to splurge, for someone who hates shopping! impulse buying of a pair of sandals with "diamonds" and a Guess hand bag.
100bucks++, bye bye
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monday (3rd aug)
aniwae, had SM presentation juz nw. 20mins. we all talked super-fast sia. was obvious dat we nvr rehearse skit since evrione was all over the place.
lily lim gave comments to evrione. ryan's comments were funny. all contradict to his actual personality. was trying hard not to LOL throughout. den came my turn.
she said im someone who's comfortable on stage (i'm not!!). she was shocked i nid hand-notes to present. really meh? i always tot i had stage fright. dats why i dun dare go up on stage. paiseh. weird.
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some reports and presentations cleared. still a long way to go. going off now. will be bck in a week or 2, or less. i hope, im still alive by then. Ryan soooo.... owes me a song.
